On my way back from last day at Amersham. feeling a bit sad, feels a bit like when i left Bristol.

Except then it was more of a negative move, what with dropping out of uni. this time i'm only moving job. but being a bit softy i can't help but feel a little down to think i'll hardly see people ever again that i've been around day in, day out for the last 3 years.

Yesterday and today i've felt an almost nervous panic about leaving. as if things are being left unfinished. so i've been leaving cuttings from hagakure (book of the samurai) around the lab, along with small pieces of gaffer tape with smilies on them. sort of needing to leave a legacy or something?

Been going round site saying bye to a few people today, spose if i'm honest it's little more than attention seeking! bit like a birthday, everone wishing you good will and being friendly (for the most part).

Although, be nice to see various people from site next friday for my leaving do. probs won't be a huge turnout, not a problem though. only had one person make the effort when i left my last job! hmm.

Starting to feel more at peace this afternoon, partly from a swift half at lunch :p
also felt calmer after doing a html page with handy work numbers on it, then saving it to the shared drive. pretty much just me showing off, most of them are either easily found or on the phone list on the wall in the lab. most were numbers i'd scribblled in my lab coat diary for easy reference, think some of them were wrong now i think of it :p

Feels good to have left on good terms, to paraphrase dan le sac vs scroobius pip :

In this life you can be either smart orpleasant,

the rewards of being pleasant are far more incandescant.

(written on my phone on the train back from work a few hours ago)

doph
:o)